something like laughter

so i would assume that most of the people who actually read this know that i'm in Limestone, Maine right now. and in case anyone didn't know that... i'm in Limestone, Maine right now.
yeah.
anywho.
when i say that there is no one up here, i want you to completely understand what i mean. the population of Limestone is around 2,000. to give that statement a little sense of perspective, the population of Lafayette is 190,000.
the closest largest city to Limestone is Caribou, which has a population around 8,000. and that's around 20 miles away.
k, so Limestone=2,000 peoples. i'm currently on an abandoned airforce base north of Limestone. key word being abandoned. i think like 50 people live within 5 miles of this place.
part of this place being abandoned is that there used to be appartment complexes just ouside of where im staying, but they got demolished when the base closed 10 years ago, so now it's just open fields with roads going through them. and nothing around (hopefully by now when i say nothing you have a good idea that i truly, honestly mean NOTHING)

i went out to look at the stars last night.

words cannot describe.
awe-inspiring, amazing, astounding, beautiful, these words are meaningless compared to what i saw.
i could see the Milky Way like it was a cloud stretching across the sky.
between the clean air, the fact that i couldn't even see the light haze of any cities, and the nearest source of light being about .5 miles away in the form of a street lamp, it was just *sigh*

and to make the picture complete, i was talking to Tara on the phone.
i don't think it could have been any better.

except that i was paranoid that someone would jump out from one of the fields and kill me.
but that's normal, right?
>.<

{when i look at the stars, i see Someone else}

so something that i thought of the other day:

it is generally accepted that animals don't have souls.
this is usually explained by the fact that if they did, they don't have the mental capacity to accept Christ, so they'd all go to hell.
so what i started thinking was that animals don't sin.
metaphysically speaking, they're perfect.
(no, tara, they're not Jesus) ;-)
so really, just kinda chew on that.


something else i was thinking of:

there's a FIF song that says something like "when i was faithless, He still died for me"
this seems innocent enough, right? and it's not just them. i've heard some variation on this elsewhere, like everywhere. so that statment is considered true.
but we also consider it true that God is not bound by time. He views the entirety of human history in one glance. kindof like if the existance of the universe is a yardstick that i (god) am looking at from across the room. (this is also good for explaining predestination; God knows whether or not i'll "accept" Him, but it's still my choice whether or not i will)
so ok, if God is not bound by time, then there is no "before" or "after" anything for Him.
following me so far?
so if, according to God's sense of perception, there is no such thing as "before" i was a Christian, then i was always saved in His eyes.
if we follow that line of thought to its logical end, did He really die for the people who would never accept Him?

so i realize that one takes a little more creative thought, and it's honestly not all that important, but you gotta admit, it makes for some pretty interesting thinking action

i have this thing while i'm at work: i like to guess things about people. for instance, when a couple comes in, i try to guess (without looking at the hands) whether they are dating or married. or when 2 females come in, i try to guess whether they are just friends or a couple.
so i was at work the other day, and this guy and girl come in, and they're looking around and joking around and stuff. generally looking like they were having a great time cutting up and etc.
without realizing it, i caught myself thinking "hmmm yeah these guys must not be married. i mean, look at how much fun they're having together." and then i realized what i just thought.

damn. really?
is that the first idea i have about marrage?
that if people are happy together, they must not be married?
if they're not arguing they must be dating?
i mean, this is a sad, sad thing.

but looking at it, i can't think of a particular instance that i would have contracted this idea from. i mean, (aside from this one couple i know... (and no, neither of them would be reading this)) it's not like any of the married couples i know spend all the time fighting.
so where would i have picked this up from?

so anyway, yeah. that really disturbed me.